what is there in the future?

I've been battling with my thoughts lately. Been contemplating a lot if I should actually pursue my career as a nurse. And now I've come to a conclusion,...ahm, maybe.

As others may know that taking up Nursing was never a first choice, nor was it a second, or a third, or a fourth choice for me. Maybe the fiftieth, or fortieth. Well, no one will surely know. The bottom line is that growing up I never imagined working at a hospital wearing a nurse's uniform. It never EVER crossed my mind. But here I am today, with a Nursing degree and a license to be one. I had good grades in college, never failed an exam or subject. I did well in our Nursing Licensure Exam; however, having good grades doesn't really mean that you love it, or whatever you are doing. Right? It just happens that you're good in understanding, analyzing, and memorizing certain things. But the passion to do your work is what will truly set you apart from others.

I may have fell in love with Nursing while in College, but just like any other love, we could sometimes fall out of love. Yes, I have to admit that being a Nurse will never be a long time profession for me. If ever I do end up one in the long run, it would simply mean that I'm working for the money. Money would only be the reason, and it's not a good reason from my point of view.

I have always believed that we should be doing things that we love. But from the opinions I've been hearing (you know who you guys are) they say that it's just not how life works. They said that you can't always have what you want in life. It's just not the way it is. You'll eventually have to sacrifice certain things, in order to commit other desires. Yes, it's probably true. However, I would like to differ. I would like to believe that you can have everything you want in life. That everything is possible, and that time is never wasted when you do something you love.

Unfortunately, nowadays money is the focus of them all. Yes, I know, we need money. Success doesn't come while we just sit in a chair doing nothing. Work must be done. And in order to have a good and respected employment, we have to get an education. But here's the misconception. When people say "education", first comes to mind is school. Years of sacrifice staying in a four-walled room, with a blabbering person in front of many young (and sometimes old or middle aged) people telling them how things work. But to tell you honestly, I hardly remember 80% of the subjects that were forced into my complicated brain. The things I know and understand now, are those that I've acquired beyond those four walls.

So do you think being a nurse is something I will ever desire to become? The answer is pretty clear. So you may ask, "So Nica, what do you want to do?" I have an answer to that, but since I'm still looking for a way for that to happen, we'll just have to wait and see....